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hey 1 more INTP looking to your help
yeah i am 1 more to join your group
Hi Michelle, I think I'm the typical INTP. I've never excelled in any career because I got frustrated/bored too quickly when it came to the administrative tasks. I haven always dreamed of being a designer; perhaps an industrial or creative designer, and also have a strong leaning toward anything having to do with animal welfare and the ecology/environment, and so at times considered becoming a veterinarian, environmentalist, marine scientist, teacher, and even considered running away to live and work on a dude ranch, which at the time seemed to coalesque my love for animals and interest in ecology (the environment/outdoors). At one time I also considered an art career; and, as to my interest in a teaching career: I have only ever been interested in teaching at the college or advanced high school levels... I have no interest in wiping kids' noses and cleaning crayon off walls and all the other gaff that constitutes a grammar teacher's life (how horrible of me!) I've begun to feel that all these "pre-requisites" to action, combined with my easily bored nature, lack of assertiveness, drive, and perceverance have proven to be my downfall. In these ways, I guess I would characterize myself as a "lazy" person. Neither have I ever been exceedingly good at math -- at least never was in school. Oddly thou, outside of school I find myself discovering new ways to approach mathematical problems that weren't considered in my formal education. I can say that I'm better than most persons my age at solving complex mathematical equations, but alas, I don't hold any degree (based on my prior experience with institutionalized analytical learning, I doubt much could be accomplished in that regard). Unfortunately many of my interests require advanced education in mathematics. So here I feel terribly frustrated because I feel like a piece of paper is keeping me from doing things for which I have a natural aptitude and interest. I'm also the classic right/left brain dysfunctional, having always been in honors english classes in high school and later in college. My professors and people who know me continue to hound me to publish, but I don't feel I have anything to write about because I don't have a very interesting life, so what's the point? Now as an office worker the drudgery of my days is building to an unbearable point. It's all so frustrating sometimes.
I am about 40 years old and have never posted comments on any site. Career-wise, I think that I have reached a plateau (or peak-depending on the day that I look at it). I've always have or made options, which is both a blessing and a curse.
I began working part-time at 13 because I wanted to learn something new and make a little money in the process. Since then, I have continued to pursue jobs for the same reason. Lastly, I have a BBA and MBA.
For the past 12 years, I have been a consultant, mainly in the sales, marketing, and supply chain arena. I would describe my consulting as more pair-of-hands consulting (Block, 1981), in which I take projects and do chores that senior executives abhor, but need. Initially, this type of work was exciting because I got to see new environments and learn new things. I can honestly say within business and non-profits, I have seen it all. Everything seems to be the "same", with little differences among, people, processes, and environments. This sameness has caused me to ask, what's new to learn? If people, processes, environments, and structures are all the same, then what new stone can I look under? Plus, as time as passed, I have become quite frustrated with people in business mostly focusing on "how" to complete a task, rather than asking "why" a person refuses to complete the task (one exception root cause analysis, which is still very "how" focused).
As a result of the "sameness", I thought that pursuing a PhD in something would allow me to gain new complex knowledge. Earlier this year, I began a PhD in Org Behavior at a top school. Thinking this arena would be different, I quickly realized that although the type of work is different (I have to publish "peer-reviewed" articles in top research journals (constantly)), the structure is very similar to corporations in which impression management, competition, and being aggressive seem to be highly valued. Not being a competitor with others, but rather myself, I found this reality to be very disenchanting. Moreover, I thought that in academics, I would make consistent money, with no pressure - the money is better than I thought (9mos=$130K), but the pressure to produce is enormous.
My alternative, is to return to the inconsistent life of consulting, in which I do a consulting gig for 9 months (pretty much all I can take working with the "same" people), then two months without a project in which I have to network to get another one. An earlier poster stated that she is on to the next project - which is cool, but I have a family that consistently needs a paycheck.
So my question: which misery (I seriously am that jaded, so please no *positive talk* like "change your occurring" =), is better - going back to consulting or finishing the program?
1. Are there any Org. Behavior academics INTP out there?
2. If so, have you enjoyed competing, being recognized, and constantly writing? Any suggestions?
3. Also, in order to complete the OB program, I may have to work on the side and simultaneously learn this new craft - since focus is better for an INTP, is this advisable?
4. Lastly, do you think that this career is worth the entire headache, especially since the only passion I seen to have at present is to be "left alone."
I am married to a wonderful ENFP, who "gets me" and have a daughter, who I think is absolutely amazing. My wife thinks that I will not like any career; as such, she thinks that academics is complex, and therefore, will keep me busy for 30-40 years. I think the writing aspect is complex (there is a particular form and logic pattern used in most mgmt. (OB) articles), but once I get that, then what? Am I missing something? The only other thing that would be complex is learning how to maneuver to the people minutia?
Your thoughts are appreciated.
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